I have not written in my web log for awhile as I really had to come to grips with what was going on with me. After my brace came off my hand I noticed if I held something my hand would shake. OK, it was just recovering and getting stronger, only the shakes started getting worse. Then my left hand started doing the same thing.
The next thing I noticed was I was having a hard time swallowing, that is also not uncommon for me when My sinuses flare up. Well, this continued for over a week until one morning when I got up my whole body was shaking. I mean hard shakes--so it was time to head for the Dr. I called the office only to find out my Dr. would be out of town for two weeks, now that is just wrong. Dr.s can take a day off in my book not weeks!! So it was off to the ER, hate that place.
The first thing the Dr. asked me was "are you anxious"? " Well, yes as a matter of fact I am, my body is shaking and I need you to make it stop." The lack of panic on his face did me no good, I think a Dr. should say something like "OMG lets find out what is going on" but no, he just acted very calm. Sent the nurse in to take out all my blood and left the room.
Then, when he did come back he said " you have a anxiety disorder". What? I never heard of it. He made sure before giving me any medication that I did not drive myself there.
Now, after he has given my a list of the symptoms I can check them all off as yes.
Here are signs you should watch for:
1. Feeling tired or irritable, or having a hard time concentrating.
2. Having a headache or muscle aches
3.Having a hard time swallowing
4.Feeling shaky, sweating, or having hot flashes
So now I wait for my Dr. to get back. I do have emergency medication I can take but so far the symptoms are not that bad. Mornings are the worse and things seem to improve a bit through the day.
So, now I feel a little better just sharing. I also got out when we had some nice days and snapped a picture of the winter wheat field, ready to be plowed under and spring wheat planted. Something about the fields going on and on in open space that I just love. I have heard people say how boring there is nothing to see, but I see futures, past's and God.